Tuesday, November 16, 2010

Great book I'm reading for homework.

So Angela recommended a really, really good book that I'm taking a liking to and that makes complete sense as I read it. It's called The Four Agreements by don Miguel Ruiz.
The book is about ancient Mexican (Toltec) principles that, when followed, bring freedom and then happiness to your life. The four agreements are (taken from www.toltecspirit.com):

1. Be Impeccable with your Word:
Speak with integrity. Say only what you mean. Avoid using the Word to speak against yourself or to gossip about others. Use the power of your Word in the direction of truth and love.

2. Don’t Take Anything Personally
Nothing others do is because of you. What others say and do is a projection of their own reality, their own dream. When you are immune to the opinions and actions of others, you won’t be the victim of needless suffering.

3. Don’t Make Assumptions
Find the courage to ask questions and to express what you really want. Communicate with others as clearly as you can to avoid misunderstandings, sadness and drama. With just this one agreement, you can completely transform your life.

4. Always Do Your Best
Your best is going to change from moment to moment; it will be different when you are healthy as opposed to sick. Under any circumstance, simply do your best, and you will avoid self-judgment, self-abuse, and regret.

I love the way the author writes. When I read books, I sometimes tend to not pay attention 100% and then have to go back and re-read a bit. The author repeats, recaps, restates and reiterates his points. It's all very logical to me and makes total sense. After reading it, I find myself thinking, why did I never think of this before?? It's very cool. At work last night, I read for a little bit after doing my work and read 80 pages!

Saturday, November 6, 2010

Monday's Reiki session and a strange occurrence! Also relationship stuff and me seeking out socializing without alcohol....

So Monday Angela performed another Reiki session on me. Almost immediately, I felt a wave of energy pulsing through me. It started at my head and went through my whole body and was accompanied by a little bit of heat. That's not the weird part....

So shortly after she started, she still had her hands on either side of my head. I felt somebody holding my right hand. Yeah. Seriously. We were maybe less than two minutes in, so I was still awake and wasn't in a trance state or anything. It was followed by a feeling of comfort, peace, and relaxation. I know it sounds weird, but I felt it! I can't explain it and can't say if it was a spirit guide, a dead relative, or my imagination, but I can tell you, it felt real. I'm keeping an open mind through this process as I want to change and improve what's in my noggin!

So Angela also told me to be open to falling in love again. She had me fill out a a contrast/clarity list where you write down on one side the things that you don't want in a relationship and on the clarity side the things that you DO want in a relationship. For instance, say you don't want someone abusive, so you would right that on your contrast side and on the clarity side you would write maybe that you wanted someone kind. The goal is that when you're done the clarity side will basically list exactly what it is you're looking for in a relationship. I need to finish filling mine out...it's a work in progress.
I don't remember dreams much, but I had one the other night. About my ex, Amy. She broke up with me almost exactly a year ago. ON MY BIRTHDAY, And we lived together. Wow. She broke my heart. I don't think I've been able to get over her. I won't go into all the details, but she was the only girl I've ever lived with. Anyway, I had a dream the other night about her. The jist of the dream was essentially that she had moved on but I was stuck and hadn't. I ended up trying to tell her that she broke my heart, but I ended up telling some other guy in the dream who, I think, symbolized whomever she moved on with (pretty sure she had been cheating on me at the end). Not sure what the whole thing means, but pretty sure it had something to do with Angela talking to me about relationships and being open to falling in love. I think I was seeking closure in that dream but was unable to find it.

We also discussed my wanting to drink less. That being said, I don't feel I have an alcohol problem, but I feel that my social interactions revolve mostly around alcohol. I also need to expand my horizons as far as needing more friends and more social interaction in general. Pretty much what my social life consists of is hanging out at Billy Joe's on a night when it's mostly empty and singing karaoke and drinking beer. Pretty boring! I need to seek out some interesting things to do that don't center around alcohol. This has the potential to bring with it a lot of positive side effects.

Can't wait to see what today's session brings!. Also, we might record a follow-up interview after today's session.

Wednesday, November 3, 2010

My first session of alternative healing.

So I had my first session on the 25th of October. I met Angela at the office after working 9 hours or so.
We talked for a bit and did some EFT (Emotional Freedom Technique or also Emotionally Focused Therapy). Here's a definition to give you an idea of what EFT is: "a form of alternative psychotherapy that purports to manipulate the body's energy field by tapping on acupuncture points while a specific traumatic memory is focused on, in order to alleviate a psychological problem."
So Angela had me close my eyes and tap on various parts of my hand and face while repeating various phrases that she stated. I can't say I really felt anything on this first experience, but I didn't expect to on the first time. :)

We also did some Reiki (pronounced ray-kee). Here's a definition: "a spiritual practice developed in 1922 by Japanese Buddhist Mikao Usui. It uses a technique commonly called palm healing as a form of complementary and alternative medicine and is sometimes classified as oriental medicine by some professional bodies. Through the use of this technique, practitioners transfer healing energy in the form of ki through the palms."
I can't tell you how relaxed this makes me. This first session went down like this: I lay on my back on a table and with a cover over my eyes to darken everything with the lights also turned off and relaxing music playing. Angela started by placing her hands on my head and saying a sort of prayer to state her purpose to god/spirits/whomever. While I never fell asleep, I was so relaxed; it was almost a state of hypnosis (that's what I know that I can relate it to)! She proceeds to place her hands above and below different places on my body: for instance, she would slide a hand under my back and have her other hand on my chest. She then told me to envision a sponge that acts like a magnet to soak up or pull all of the bad stuff (could be thoughts, energies, etc) out and at the end, send them to the sun to transform their energy. At the end I slowly come back up to 'normal'. I was sooo extremely relaxed. I can't say I felt much other than relaxed after this first session, but again, I didn't expect anything else.

Lastly, she gave me some affirmations to repeat to myself whenever I felt the need. I have used those affirmations and others since then, and I think they help!


Stay tuned for the second session and a strange experience which I wasn't expecting to have!