Tonight's weigh-in results....

If you'll remember, over the last 3 weigh-ins I lost 1/2, gained 1/2,
then lost 1/2 again. I was really frustrated. I had no idea what
tonight's weigh-in would bring.
I lost 4.5 pounds! YES! I'm down to 205! I have 5 to go now to get
to my goal!!! I don't even know the last week I lost more than 4
pounds! Wow!
The only real change I made this week was I didn't work out Monday
since I took the day off from work due to the 48 Hr Film Project and
had to meet with my lawyer. I have to meet with my lawyer next
Wednesday, so we'll see what that does.
I'm really excited.
With 11 weeks or so until my birthday and my speech at Take Control Of
Your Diabetes, I could conceivably get to my next goal of 180!
Man. I am proud!

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Comments that frustrate you....

So I weigh-in at Mercy Center for Weight Reduction on Thursday nights right after work.
The manager of the clinic says some things that frustrate me at times. I'm sure she means well, but words can be misinterpreted...

I hate it when she says: "Do you really think you're going to be able to keep the weight off?"
My answer: "Well, I've only gained a little bit just a few times. I've been losing steadily for the most part for some 10 months or so."

She also says: "Do you really think you're going to keep working out 5 days a week? Is this something that you can keep doing?"
My answer: "I love working out. I love going to the gym 5 days a week. I started out at 3 days a week and loved it so much that I decided to go 5 days a week."

I'm sure she's not trying to second-guess me and that maybe she's just trying to get me to think, but I don't like questions like that which have an underlying negative slant.

I AM going to keep the weight off. I AM going to keep working out. I've found what works for me and what I enjoy. If I need to make adjustments later, I will. Whatever I can do to keep healthy and keep on the right track I'm going to do!

I don't hear any of that stuff from anybody else. I think everyone sees my pride and sees my drive and devotion and motivation and understands that this is for real. This is for life.

Look at my melon now next to my melon before....

Before (316lbs)




Now (209 1/2 or so)




Of course it was sunny and I was squinting while looking into the sun....

Today's workout....

So today I jogged for 7 minutes then walked 1 then jogged for 7 again then walked 1. I then jogged 6 then walked 1 and jogged 6 then walked 1. Then jogged 5 then walked 1 then jogged 5 then walked 1. Then I jogged 3 then walked for a few minutes for a cool-down. Oh yeah, did like a 1 or 2 minute warm-up walk.
After that I did the weights. We upped most of the machines today or will Friday. After the weights, we did the abs.

Friday we're going to do measurements....

Thoughts before bed....

As I lay here in bed having just watched the ABC special about Randy
Pausch (sp?) and his 'The Last Lecture', I'm thinking a bit. The more
time I spend alone (and it's a lot anymore) the more I wonder why I'm
alone.
I'm selfish. I put myself before others a lot of the time. Am I a nice
guy? I think so. Usually. I try to be. Does being selfish make me a
bad person? Sometimes I wonder. I've done some bad things - very bad
things - due to selfishness.
I'm egotistical. I love the attention that I get from people talking
about my weight loss. I crave that attention. I crave attention in
general. My ego has been a big part of my losing weight, though.
I believe in karma. I put myself first so much that it's no wonder
that I'm single. It's no wonder that I have just a few friends. I'm
not even sure how those friends can stand to be around me sometimes. I
spend so much time alone, I think, because people don't find me fun to
be around a lot of times. Karma has me by the cohones these days.
I used to say all the time how I'd never get married because my
parents' marriage was so bad. The older I get, the more I'm kind of
second-guessing that. Did they have a bad marriage? Ooh yeah.
Sometimes I feel my biological clock is ticking. Most days I wish I
had someone close to me to share my recent successes with and to talk
about my other recent frustrations with. Sometimes I don't want to be
selfish. Sometimes I want to put others first and not myself.
It's funny that as much weight as I've lost, this is the longest I've
been single in quite some time. As good as I feel about myself
physically some days, I must be putting out a negative vibe.
Back to karma: You get back what you put out. I've put out a lot of
bad, though I really am well-intentioned and don't mean to hurt
people. Sometimes I don't know how to get past myself and my feelings
for the good of others.

Sorry.

In the past, this would probably be a burger and fries and huge pop
and then ice cream later. Today it's words and thoughts and feelings.
And ego. And selfishness. And loneliness. And karma.
Until I change my output, I'll keep getting the same input.
Here's to trying to make a change.

Goodnight.

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Today's workout....

I hit the treadmill before class today. I did a 1 minute warmup walk
then jogged for 10 then 1 minute cool-down.
In class we did step aerobics. We did a bunch of combinations and
drills. We also did abs. For some reason I was light-headed and dizzy
during class.
After class I jogged another 5 minutes and did another 2 or so minute
cool-down.
Good workout.

I'm trying to post this via email from my iPhone, so we'll see if it
works....

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Lunch for lunch and learn tomorrow....

So I don't have the food or money to bring my own lunch to the lunch and learn tomorrow. They're getting Jimmy Johns. I had signed up for no food during the last one because I intended to bring my own. Since I'm broke and foodless until tomorrow, I went online and looked at Jimmy Johns menu. I decided to get a Turkey Tom sub minus the bread (lettuce wrap) and substituted the may w/ avocado spread (probably not much better, but oh well). I also ordered it w/ all veggies. I'm going to bring some edamame to eat with it.